I actually wasn't sure I wanted to be a mom. I've always been crazy driven and goal-minded. I'm a starter by nature and driven by projects, ideas and creative pursuits. At one time my sweet husband actually said, "Babe! Could you just pick ONE hobby already?!" (I was oil painting, taking classes, home renovating, scrap booking, sewing, perennial gardening, working 2 jobs, cooking and hosting and baking and I'm sure there were a dozen more.) Adding kids and being a mom to the mix was never something I thought I wanted. We were married for 8 years before our son came along.
Hutch arrived and changed everything 6 years ago. I had just quit an administrative job, finished my degree and started my hardest push for a brand new photography business. Then, Hutch was suddenly in the picture and God had a beautiful plan to give me a new love in life--this little, dirt-loving, smiley, funny-faced kid.
He loves kindergarten, reading, trampolining, Legos, Pixar movies, adventures in the woods, chocolate ice cream, and his new pet, a caterpillar he found, named "Fuzzy" and keeps sneaking inside the house.
Hutch has taught me the most about mothering, because I've been his mom the longest. He's taught me:
- That I have to apologize when I'm wrong.
- The house can get messy and I can just PLAY.
- Being clean, organized and in control are not as important as being loving, patience, full of grace and having time for others.
- Peanut butter and Jelly sandwiches are "very healthy"
After Hutch was born, just like an Oreo, we knew we couldn't have just one. We were quickly on to planning the arrival of our second and she did not disappoint! Reese was born 4 years ago and she has been every bit of her namesake: firey.
Our family would not be the same without this frizzy-haired, dirty, yogurt-eating, part girly-girl/part tom-boy second-born. She never sleeps. She loves ponies and purses and dress-up and worms. She cries when her feelings are hurt and still loves to snuggle (especially when her mouth is covered in pizza sauce).
I have been the most challenged by being Reese's mamma. I have learned from Reese that:
- Being friendly when you're shopping is not embarrassing and most people are just waiting to be acknowledged.
- You can never have enough dairy.
- Adults have lost their sense of imagination and playing kitties can be really fun. Especially if you're the mommy kitty.
- Even at 4, you can have a best friend.
Mother's Day has become a time for me to think about how I've been changed by becoming a mom. I would have to say being a mom is a bit like those rock tumblers from the late '90s. You know the ones? You put in this ugly old, rough gray stone and after a loud and long polishing process, out pops a gem! My kiddos have been part of that long and loud process, breaking down the rough edges and helping me to realize what lies under all the control, got-it-togetherness. And I couldn't be more thankful to call them mine.